Never Look Back...

“Are you kidding me?” Naima mahupun Ira sudah tidak berani menoleh ke belakang. Iman pula bagai cacing kepanasan di tempat duduknya. Cuma aku sahaja yang kaku memandangkan aku sedang bertentang mata dengan hantu perempuan yang sedang berdiri di belakang Naima dan Ira. Hantu perempuan itu masih juga sama, merenungku dengan tajam. Tiba-tiba aku terasa tanganku disentuh oleh seseorang. Ketika itu barulah sendi-sendi leherku dapat bergerak dan aku memandang Iman di sebelahku. Biarpun aku tahu Iman tidak mahu bertentang mata denganku, tindakannya memegang tanganku seolah-olah ingin memberikan kekuatan kepadaku. “She still standing behind us?” Naima menyoal dalam nada berbisik. Aku mengangguk perlahan. “I know it’s hard but just ask her what she want,” Iman pula bersuara kepadaku. Aku menarik nafas dalam-dalam, mengumpul keberanian yang hanya senipis kulit bawang. Sekali lagi aku membalas renungan hantu perempuan itu sebelum membuka mulut. “Saya tak kenal awak dan awak pun tak ke...

26 May 2009 Assalammualaikum and good evening.... The other day I just found my old creation of novel. So, I read it back and somehow I cannot stop laughing because me myself never satisfied each story that I wrote. Well, maybe at that time, I'm still not matured, still full with fantasy or something. But there have 5 or 6 story that I still interested to continue. Wow, just one week left, almost 8 days left. As usual, I don't prepare anything yet. None of my family already pack anything, hehehhehehe but maybe tonight I will get it start. Actually I don't have any idea what to write here. Again, one of my friend call me 'Hey, Update your blog lah!'. Did she think it is easy to do that? Hello, I'm at home now and FYI nothing interesting happen here. Hopefully something interesting will appear but have to wait first. I'm pissed about something right now but it is not important because I don't involved in it directly. I miss basketball so much. Yeah, basket...

Dua hari sudah berlalu semenjak peristiwa di bangunan klinik. Ini juga kali pertama aku bagaikan dalam penantian menunggu kemunculan hantu pelajar perempuan tersebut sedangkan sebelum ini, aku tidak pernah mengharapkan dapat melihat hantu yang sama berulang kali. Namun, mungkin benar semuanya itu hanya perasaan aku sahaja. Jadi aku merancang untuk melupakannya. Kelas aku bermula jam lapan setengah pagi setiap hari Selasa dan Khamis. Seperti biasa, aku bangkit dengan bantuan jam loceng daripada telefon bimbitku pada pukul enam pagi. Lama aku duduk di birai katil bagi menghilangkan kantuk. Kalau aku masih berbaring, pasti mata aku akan lelap semula. Teman-teman sebilikku mungkin masih lena dibuai mimpi. Nanti sahajalah aku mengejutkan mereka. Selepas hampir lima minit, barulah aku berdiri dan membuat beberapa senaman ringkas. Kemudian aku melangkah keluar bilik untuk mengambil wuduk. Di hadapan bilikku terdapat dua bangku yang sememangnya sudah sedia ada untuk kegunaan sesiapa ...

21 May 2009... Assalammualaikum and good morning.... Again...again...again...again....and again!!! Another great performance from my Jin. Murasaki is his old solo song. Compose by himself and I first and last hear it is at Koizokuban Concert which is in year 2005 and then I can hear it now!! He sing with the members one by one. Fans going crazy especially at AKAME part. I cannot hear Jin and Kame voice at all. And the funny part is with Nakamaru. Jin like to tease him and it funny to watch the hand movement! So, let watch if you interested... Love him more by now. I thought he will choose Care or Pinky but Murasaki is not bad. Furthermore that is the song that he compose. Usually he just credit in lyrics.

“I can see a ghosts,” Setahun yang lepas, aku memberanikan diri memberitahu tiga rakanku mengenai rahsia yang sudah lama aku pendam selama ini. Aku bukannya hendak menakutkan mereka cuma mereka terlalu mendesak apabila sering kali melihat kelakuan aku yang serba tidak kena pada sesuatu masa. Iman, Naima dan Ira yang mendengar ketika itu terdiam seribu bahasa. Reaksi apa lagi yang aku jangkakan selain daripada itu. Hampir setengah minit kemudian, barulah mereka bertiga membuka mulut dan meminta aku memberi penjelasan daripada awal sehinggalah ke akhir. Jadi, aku tidak membuang masa lalu terus bercerita mengenainya. Sangkaku, mereka bertiga tidak akan berkawan lagi dengan aku. Iyalah, aku boleh lihat sesuatu yang mereka tidak boleh lihat dan semestinya mereka akan sentiasa bertanya-tanya tentang ‘benda’ itu apabila bersama aku. Apabila aku mengatakan aku tidak kisah jika mereka tidak mahu lagi bersama aku, mereka bertiga mengetuk kepala aku bergilir-gilir. Sudahlah gun...

20 May 2009... Assalammualaikum and good morning.... Another fancams of Jin performance. You know, I can't stop it. I just love him so much and everything about him make me overly excited. Yesteday Jin is the one who choose the medley for member corner. He choose Le ciel, Murasaki, Six Sense and Love or Like. Many fans satisfied with Kat-Tun performance for yesterday concert. I always get their info here http://community.livejournal.com/kattunlove To the video..... Fantastic!!!!!! Ok, what I'm doing today? Nothing actually. I just wrote some story that can be upload here. My own novel. Write just for fun. So, please looking forward for it. You know what, I can't help it. Everytime I want to write a novel, I always want to choose my own name and I will include my friends roll in it. I don't know why. But please, I don't mean no harm. I just use my own name. So it doesn't mean nothing. And about my friends name, I think they will understand it if I use it. Sleepy ...

16 May 2009.... Assalammualaikum and good afternoon..... Today, I with my family went out to buy some stuff and see some lamp and furniture. Wow, there are so many kind of lamp and many of them is so beautiful! So, I can't stop my hand from snap a pictures from that shop. Let see some.... I like this lamp actually... my mom want this lamp... RM 5000??!! O_o! Also like this lamp because have Japan element... Black and White is wonderful.. Random lamp.... Looks luxury And here is some of furniture. I cannot take much picture because my friends call me at this time. I prefer this kind of sofa but my mom hate it! Some of diner table... My mom want this... My dad... Diner table with 8 seats.... Flower picture at some diner table....beautiful... Uwahhh!!! I really loves the lamp! Absolutely gorgeous! Ok, now, let see my Jin!! Awesome!! Love him more...more....more....and more!!! Ok, wassalam!

16 May 2009.... Assalammualaikum and good morning...it still morning right? Kat-Tun!!! My favorite band right now are holding a concert in Japan. They will perform their concert 8 days in rows, non stop! Yesterday is their first day. So, I go to livejournal and read some of the reports from the fans that went to Kat-Tun concert. Most of them say Kat-Tun is extremely good, far better than the past concert! Mouu, I also want to watch it!! Well, actually the one that I'm looking for is Jin AKanishi solo performance! First we thought that he will perform his song which is Care but Jin already say that he will not perform that song in this concert. So, I really looking forward for his new solo. And then, it turns out that the song is his duet with Crystal Kay! I know Crytal Kay because she is one of the Cartoon Kat-Tun guest and she is really pretty with a strong voice. The reports say the song is in English. Gosh! I bet I will love it! Overall, Kat-Tun's first day of concert turn o...

12 May 2009 Assalammualaikum and good afternoon... Now is 2125. Just came back after went to some shop because Ayish want to copy something. Wahhh.....!!! I don't know what to do during my time in my own house. Usually, I will sleep when up to 12 am and wake up around 6am to perform the prayer but sometimes I miss it(Subuh prayer). Then, I will take a nap at 6 pm and wake up again at 7:15pm. I always do that. Almost everyday. I became lazy to update my blog recently. Then, my FRIEND sms me, wrote 'Why don't you update your blog? Don't have any new story?'. Yes, I do have a story but not so interesting. That's why I don't want to write it here. Are you reading this, Intan? You just disturbing my sleep beside Ayish who ask me to drive him to shop. Ok, my house now in the middle of.....renovation? My mom want to make a new hall in front of the house. The process going well just now. Maybe they can finish it before we go to umrah. Now I excited to see it finish ...

29th April 2009…. Assalammualaikum and good day…. AHHHH!!!!!! The last day of the program. YATTTA!!!! Today also I will go back to Batu Pahat but first I need to go to Melaka because tomorrow I will pick up Achik at her school. So, at 8 am, I, Intan and Faiza go to CAC because here is where the final debate for Bahasa Melayu and closing ceremony being held. We take our breakfast at KAED and after that went back to CAC. Again meet with Boo, Salam and Nurul. I take last pictures with my team, Habibah, Amalia, Liyana and Sarah. Thanks so much to them. I know that I do not spend much time with them but I hope next year we will meet again. So, STAR and SMI Hidayah. While we waiting for kak Aishah at outside of the CAC, some people suddenly chase us out. ‘Cepat sikit naik atas! VIP dah nak sampai ni!’. Hah? Why she have to yell at us like that? Who cares about VIP? They still a human and we are human too, so, what is the different? Maybe VIP is well known but she doesn’t have to yell at us l...

28th April 2009…. Assalammualaikum and good day everyone…. Wow, already became 4th day of the program. Today may be I don’t have so many jobs. Just need to make sure where your team location is. Usually I have to follow my team each time their turn to debate but yesterday because my team didn’t manage to become top 8, I don’t need to stick with them. So, they are automatically out of the game. It’s ok. They still have chances next year and I know they can do it better. In morning, I went to Moot Court around 10 am I think. Breakfast already serve for us. 8 teams left and I expected SMAP Kajang win. You want to know why? Because second speaker of this team is so cute!! Hahahahhah!! Many agree with me ok? So, for the quarter final, I and Intan went to watch SMAP Kajang against SBPI Gombak. The room is so full and we have to stand all the time but not all the time, just 15 minute. Then we get out of there and return back to Moot Court. Then, the result which 4 teams are succeeds to semi f...