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Sunday, August 30, 2009

One of My Way To Release Stress.....

30 August 2009
Assalammualaikum......

In my eyes you are strong
But the truth, you are actually the weakest,
In my eyes you are happy
But the truth, you force yourself,
In my eyes, you are laughing
But the truth, it is not from the bottom of your heart,
In my eyes, it is you
But the truth, you try so hard to hiding your true self,
So from now on, just cry when you need to cry,
Just hate when you want to hate,
Just yell when you want to yell
Because the true you is the most important.

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Friday, August 28, 2009

Antara Dua Dunia Bahagian 4

Iman, Naima dan Ira mengambil masa yang agak lama untuk berjumpa dengan Kirana memandangkan mereka tidak arif dengan selok belok bangunan kejuruteraan itu. Rasanya tidak elok pula kalau mereka bertanyakan orang bagaimana ingin ke bumbung bangunan tersebut. Akhirnya selepas bertungkus lumus mencari, mereka berjaya menjumpai tangga yang menuju ke bumbung. Tatkala mereka bertiga menjejakkan kaki ke atas bumbung bangunan itu, mereka terpaku melihat Kirana yang terduduk dengan kedua-dua kaki lurus ke hadapan sementara kepalanya tertunduk.
“Kirana!” lantas mereka mendapatkan Kirana yang rupanya tidak sedarkan diri.
“Macamana ni?!” tanya Ira yang kalut.
“Bring her to clinic! Now!” Iman dan Naima cuba mengangkat Kirana.
Namun, di luar jangkaan mereka, Kirana tiba-tiba tersedu-sedu menangis. Mereka terkaku di tempat masing-masing sambil menumpukan pandangan ke arah Kirana.
“Ke…ke..napa…?Kenapa?”
“WAAHHH!!” Iman dan Naima serentak melepaskan tangan dan menjauhkan diri daripada Kirana kerana itu bukan suara Kirana! Ira turut menyedari perkara tersebut.
“Kenapa….kenapa aku…?”
“Ira…Ira do something, Ira!!” pekik Naima yang sudah menggeletar lutut.
“What am I suppose to do?!!!” tanya Ira yang keliru. Ketiga-tiga mereka jelas ketakutan dan tidak tahu bagaimana hendak menghadapi keadaan sebegitu.
“Do something, Ira!!!” Iman turut mengharapkan Ira kerana antara mereka berempat, Ira boleh dikatakan lebih berilmu dalam hal agama.
“I’ve never done this before!! How….how I’m suppose to do…??”
“Apa salah aku?....Kenapa aku….? Kenapa?” Kirana berdiri dalam keadaan terhuyung hayang. Sememangnya di hadapan mereka sekarang bukannya Kirana yang sebenar. Ada sesuatu yang merasuk rakan mereka itu.
“Siapa….siapa kau?” menggigil Ira bersuara. Sumpah dia langsung tidak dapat mengingati sebarang ayat pendinding mahupun sebarang doa yang boleh membantu. Tetapi dia tidak tahu kenapa dia mahu bertanyakan hal itu kepada Kirana.
Kirana berpaling melihat Ira. Wajah Kirana ketika itu penuh dengan kesedihan. Air matanya berjujuran jatuh. Dari sudut pemerhatian mereka bertiga, Kirana mungkin tidak akan bertindak agresif. Jadi, sedikit sebanyak, mereka kembali memperolehi tenaga masing-masing.
“Suria…..Nama aku…nama aku Suria……To..tolong cari aku….aku sejuk…..Cari aku….aku ada kat bawah…bawah…..” tutur Kirana agak perlahan tetapi dapat didengari mereka bertiga dengan jelas.
“Jangan beritahu aku……dia hantu perempuan yang Kirana maksudkan?” Iman cuba mendapatkan kepastian. Namun dia terkejut apabila Kirana mengalihkan pandangan kepadanya. Iman berundur tanpa disedari tatkala Kirana cuba mendekatinya.
“Cari aku…tolong…..Suria Dahlia….”
“Jangan datang dekat ngan aku!!” jerit Iman tetapi Kirana tetap melangkah.
Sesaat kemudian Kirana terlonglai jatuh tidak sedarkan diri.
“KIRANA!!”

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“Apa yang kau buat tu?” aku bertanya kepada seorang lelaki yang sedang khusyuk menggali sesuatu. Namun, pertanyaan aku dibiarkan tidak berjawab. Aku memandang ke sekelilingku. Ia berlainan dengan mimpi aku yang sebelum ini. Kali ini aku kenal dan tahu di mana aku berada sekarang. Aku kembali melihat lelaki tadi. Aneh, biarpun aku berada dekat dengan lelaki itu, wajah lelaki itu begitu kabur. Di sebelah lubang yang digali oleh lelaki itu pula terdapat satu bungkusan besar berwarna hitam, sebesar saiz manusia normal.
“Neih, apa tu?” soalku ingin tahu. Sekali lagi aku tidak dipedulikan. Adakah lelaki ini tidak menyedari kewujudan aku di sini? Atas alasan itu, aku mengambil inisiatif sendiri. Aku menghampiri bungkusan itu untuk memeriksa isi kandungannya. Aku mencangkung dan tanganku menyelak bukaan bungkusan itu.
“Astaghfirullah…!!” aku mengucap panjang sambil menekup mulut. Di dalam bungkusan itu terdapat mayat seorang wanita yang berlumuran darah. Malah, apa yang lagi mengejutkan, wanita itu adalah hantu yang meminta pertolongan aku!!
Aku masih lagi tergamam di atas tanah apabila aku menyedari aku ditutupi satu bayangan. Teragak-agak aku menoleh ke belakang dan ketika itulah lelaki tadi menghayunkan sebilah parang ke arahku.

“AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!”
Semua orang dikejutkan dengan jeritan yang datangnya dari bilik pemeriksaan. Beberapa jururawat bergegas menuju ke bilik itu termasuk Ira, Iman dan Naima.
Dadaku berombak dengan kencang. Nafasku turun naik dengan tidak menentu. Apabila ada orang yang muncul, aku terus menarik dan memeluk orang itu dengan erat tanpa menghiraukan siapa. Aku memejamkan mata ketakutan.
“Awak ok, cik?” tanya orang itu dan aku hanya mengangguk pantas.
“Kirana?”
Tatkala mendengar suara yang sangat aku kenali, aku membuka mata dan melihat Ira, Naima dan Iman sudah mengelilingi katilku dengan wajah bimbang. Setelah itu barulah aku mendongak untuk melihat siapa yang berada dalam pelukanku.
“So…sorry!!” aku terus meleraikan pelukanku dengan perasaan malu. Masakan tidak, aku telah memeluk seorang doctor dan apa yang lebih penting, doctor itu adalah lelaki!
“Tak per. Awak ok dah?” balas doctor itu dengan senyuman.
“Kenapa aku ada kat sini?” aku menyoal dan mahukan jawapan daripada Iman, Naima dan Ira.
“Kawan-kawan awak bawa awak ke sini. Mereka kata awak pengsan. Saya dah periksa awak tadi. Tak ada apa-apa yang perlu dibimbangkan, mungkin awak perlukan rehat yang banyak,” doctor itu memberikan penjelasan bagi pihak Ira, Iman dan Naima.
“Jadi, dia dah boleh keluarlah yer, doctor?” tanya Naima.
“Emmm, dia tak perlu ditahan tapi kena makan ubat yang saya bagi nanti. Saya perlukan salah seorang daripada kamu untuk ikut saya uruskan beberapa prosedur,” pinta doctor itu. Iman dan Naima memandang Ira dan memberi isyarat supaya Ira mengikut doctor itu.
“Why me?” Ira menggerakkan mulut tanpa suara tetapi tetap juga menerima arahan dan meninggalkan bilik pemeriksaan itu bersama-sama dengan doctor dan jururawat.
“Kuat gila kau jerit,” Naima membuka mulut terlebih dahulu selepas melabuhkan punggung di hujung katil aku.
“Bad dream….just forget it. Tell me why I’m here,” aku perlu tahu punca aku berada di sini.
“Kau tak ingat apa-apa?” Iman bertanya dahulu.
“Aku ingat aku ada pergi atas bumbung….lepas tu dah tak ingat apa-apa…” balasku sambil mengurut kepala.
“Kau kena rasuk,” beritahu Naima yang menekankan suaranya.
“Hah? What?” aku tidak percaya apa yang dikatakan oleh Naima. Bila pula aku dirasuk?
“A,ah, kau kena rasuk. Kami bertiga nampak sendiri. Hantu perempuan tu rasuk kau,” kata-kata Iman mengukuhkan lagi dakwaan Naima.
Aku memandang Naima dan Iman bergilir-gilir. Serius, ianya sesuatu yang sukar untuk aku terima. Belum pernah lagi dalam sejarah hidup aku yang aku dirasuk. Lagipun, aku langsung tidak menyedari bila ia berlaku.
“Kau biar betul?” aku perlukan sesuatu yang boleh meyakinkan aku bahawa itu adalah benar.
“Well, it’s up to you want to believe it or not but we’ve get her name. Suria Dahlia dan….walaupun tak sure lagi tapi kitorang rasa….mayat perempuan itu ada berdekatan dengan bangunan engineering tu,” terang Naima.
“Aku tahu kat mana mayat tu,”
“Eih?! Serious?!” mata Iman dan Naima membulat memandang aku. Aku hanya mengangguk.
“Tapi betul ker dia rasuk aku?” aku bertanya lagi.

P/s from me : Just realize I update my blog frequently now..... Maybe I will be in hiatus for a while until I get the better story to tell. Bye and Wassalam Photobucket Photobucket


Thursday, August 27, 2009

Life is meal, Love is cookies......???

27 August 2009.....

Assalammualaikum.....


My life principals......(more to what kind of lifestyle that I get through)


1)Will not enjoy do something if been force Photobucket


2)Hate late comers Photobucket


3)Just keep quiet when in a bad mood/angry with somebody Photobucket


4)Will be in a bad mood if don't get enough sleep Photobucket
5)Even the gap only 5 minutes, must use it for sleep Photobucket

6)Don't play sport or game using foots because definitely will be the ultimate reason why the team lose badly Photobucket
7)Will be happy and jump like a monkey if the internet speed is superb! Photobucket

8)Don't like ladies, girls or womans who wearing a hijab as a fashion, not because they have to cover the aurah Photobucket
9)Don't prefer a man who cannot advice and guide his partner about Islam manner Photobucket
10)Easy to change mind in last minute/hesitate Photobucket
11)Paprik is the best lauk in the world. Daisuki!!Photobucket

12)Not talkative/not so friendly. Need someone to approach first, then it will become overfriendly Photobucket

13)Obses with KAT-TUN, DBSK, download jkdrama, jkmusic and everything about Japan and Korea Photobucket
14)Don't believe to ownself intuition (because usually it will not correct) Photobucket
15)Last minute person Photobucket

16)Less emotion/weak in giving expression?? Somehow somebody say I don't give enough expression like they expected from...... Photobucket

17)Lucky girl. Grateful to have my parent, my siblings, my friends, myself, my religion, my world, my education, my....,my....my......bla...bla...bla Photobucket


Well, only 17? Of course not, they have so many more but only this 17 comeout from my mindnow. This is life, right? Either you like it or not like it, you will get through just fine. And it is not right if you end your life just because you face some difficulty. I always remind to myself everytime I do something worst, there will be someone who did more worst than I am but it doesn't mean that I will continue making worst. It will encourage me to be a better person next time. I never had in my mind once that my existence in this world is useless and go die! Every little things in this world is worthy even just a bacteria. I'm so happy today actually because I get FULL MARK in my Database lab test! Horray!Photobucket I'm so happy because last night my mood is very bad because someone act cruel to me and Aimi. It's really not fair when they just want to finish their job but then at the same time, make our job become harded. When we cannot finish on time, looks like they blame us. The problem here is, they just too selfish. It is good that this month is Ramadhan and as I wrote here, I will just keep quiet when I angry.

Ok, stop here. Happy berbuka and Wassalam Photobucket

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan...

25 August 2009,
Assalammualaikum....
Yeah, it is fasting month now! Already day fourth? Wahh, how quickly the time flow away actually? Just in a blink of eyes, we will realize that Eid-ul-Fitr will come soon. Now.....where am I? Photobucket FQA class? Ah, yeah, FQA class. It is great that I don't fell hungry as always since the Ramadhan started. Maybe I eat to much at Sahur? Seriously today Sahur....I eat too much!! Tom yam, telur bungkus, sayur kailan and ikan. All of it actually one person meal but four of us eat together and the funnier thing is, we can't finished the meal! Even it is actually for one person meal! What a waste!Photobucket
There is many things I want to write here but why none of them come out to my mind now? Photobucket Well, I want to tell this one particular story, but if I write it here, it will consider as 'mengumpat' right? Because, yes, I want to talk bad about someone, bad bitting but I have to hold on. It is not good for health, right?Photobucket When we are fasting, we have to protect our eyes, our ears, our tongue and prevent from eating and drinking. That is the way of fasting, the true one. Ok, that's all for now I think. Bye, Wassalam and selamat berbuka. Photobucket

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Who's in love with assignment??!!

20 August 2009....
Assalammualaikum.....
Aloha!! Vanakem!! Kombawa!! Sawadikap!! And so on. The level of mood right now is Photobucket. Yesterday I slept at 3 am. Finishing project report and just submit it this morning. When I already thought that I will free from any assignment (even I have to face it later), the other lecturer give the new one Photobucket. I've got a test in a few minute from now. Foundation Quantitative Analysis. Well you can say it is similar with statistic. So, hope I can answer the question correctly and calm (aim to finish the test within 15 minute actually when the actually time duration is one hour and 25 minute). Because my state right now is like this Photobucket.
Ah, the lecturer have come. Will edit it later...Photobucket

Thursday, August 6, 2009

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

09 August 2009
Assalammualaikum........

You know, I don't know how lucky I'm to have my ibu Photobucket. She is such a wonderful woman and mother. Recently I'd make her a little mad with me because of some reason but then, she still do everything just for me. Photobucket That's why all her child became spoiler like me, hehehehehehe......Photobucket

She buy me a broadband actually. I'm very thankful and I'm using broadband instead of university wireless right now. So, I don't have to go out from my room and can do many work in everywhere. I kind of get sore throat and a little flu. Want to go checking but right now the clinic here have lot of people. So, despite risking myself from get affected by a virus in that clinic, I have to wait first. But I hope I can recovered as soon as possible.

I'm pity with my friend. She also buy a broadband for herself but don't know where is the mistake, her laptop cannot support the broadband model, only her laptop. When I try the model using my laptop, the broadband function well and when she try my broadband in her laptop, it can be use too. I'm using different model from her. Her model is Vodafone meanwhile my model.......I don't know the name is. But it is weird when Vodafone cannot be using in her laptop. I mean, her laptop using XP windows, nothing wrong, so, why cannot be used? Moreover, since last week, I think we went back and forth to the shop where she buy that broadband. I think 3 days straight? But still cannot find any solution. My friends ask for other model as exchange since her laptop cannot support Vodafone but they say they don't have stock. When, my friends want her money back, I mean she want to return the broadband, they refused to take it back. They suggest her to format the laptop or change the OS. But I do think her laptop is not a problem, as well as the broadband. Why don't they just change the model of broadband for her? It is too hard to do? After this we want to go straight to Celcom Centre but we need to find a free times. Well, I'm frustrated too and you can imagine she is more frustrated than me. It almost one week and second week will begin but still she can't use her broadband.

Ok, I ended here. Want to do assignment. There are a lot. So, look forward for the next entry, Wassalam. Photobucket Photobucket