Never Look Back...

29 June 2009... Assalammualaikum I just came back from Melaka. Last Friday I pick up Achik from her school and Wan also to go to BP. At the same day, I went to my brother's school to take a report card. Well, I'm the only one who had a lot of free time in this house right? . My older sister also came back home. Then, on Saturday, we went to Melaka. My father say he want to treat us a dinner . IKAN BAKAR!! So, we arrived at my father's house around 8 pm I think. So, perform Maghrib and Isya' prayer first. After that, went to usually place but unfortunately that place had already close(totally close!) . We went to other places. If I not mistkae, Restoren Ikan Bakar Terapung. There are many ikan bakar stalls in that one place. Very crowded! Most of the customer are Malay. Not that I have a problem with Malay but there are totally make me pissed ! Ok, my father choose one of the stall and at that time almost all the table from that stall are full. Only one table is empt...

24 June 2009.... Assalammualaikum It's already a week is it? Well, not that I'm lazy to write anything here but I have to gain back my strength. The past two days, I went to my grandparent house. I'm not sleeping there. Just go and then back again to my house. When I was there, when I was in a kitchen, I still can hear or maybe it is just my feeling, I hear someone cough just like my late atuk. Gosh, how I miss him right now.... Recently my younger sister say that she want to transfer back to her old school. She ask about my opinion before we sent her back to her hostel last sunday. Actually I'm quite agree and support her if she want to go back . However, suddenly she change her mind and decided to just continue at her current school now. You know, I hate someone that cannot make up his/her mind. Seriously I will be happy if she went back here, my youngest sister also looking forward for it but...she want to stay...ok then, just stay. Suddenly I love to play with an...

18 June 2009..... Assalammualaikum and good evening.... 13 June 2009, atuk kesayanganku, Hj. Muhammad bin Hashim telah kembali ke rahmatullah di Makkah. Ianya memang mengejutkan sebab masa tu aku tak expect pun semua ni, lebih-lebih ketika kitorang sedang mengerjakan umrah. Atuk memang dah lemah dah masa pergi ke sana. Sebelum dia meninggal tu, dia kena tahan dalam wad dan seterusnya dimasukkan ke dalam ICU. That's the last time I saw him. Lepas dia dihantar ke hospital, keluarga aku memang tak dapat jumpa dia lagi even my grandmother. Only my father can get through. So, dalam pukul 12 pagi waktu sana, ayah aku ketuk pintu bilik and tell me that atuk is gone. Masa tu aku masih mamai but still can heard it really clear. He say, go to his room, company my grandmother but don't tell her first about it. My father get ready to go to hospital and actually my grandma did'nt sleep at all that night. She ask my dad, 'Abik nak pergi mana?'. My dad say, 'Abik nak pergi hos...